Baby Steps of Trust
God doesn't hide from us.
This is something that I have been reminded of today. I love the Bible verse Hebrews 13:8 "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever." It reminds me that when circumstances change in our own lives, there is one consistency. Jesus.
When we found out that we were pregnant last August, our journey took an immediate shift. We were in the middle of planning 2017 to have 7 months of on-the-road touring. It was incredibly exciting! Then seeing those 2 strong lines on the test changed everything. It was immediate. So rather than planning a tour that started in January, our plans went into a little bit of a tail spin that resulted in what we like to call, tour postponement. Throughout this whole time the thought never crossed either of our minds that we should stop full-time music ministry. We had and have a peace that this is still where God is leading us. We're not exactly sure how, but we know that God is still guiding in this direction and put this unexpected little blessing into our lives. And we're excited to see what it's like to tour with the little man later in the year.
Now, this isn't to say that at times it hasn't been tough to trust that God has all of this figured out. I believe it's important to be honest. And sometimes it's been scary.
We absolutely love music ministry touring! We love meeting people, hearing their stories, sharing Jesus through music & word, and travelling! And knowing that we would have been on a tour right now if we weren't pregnant may have brought out a tear or two a few weeks ago.
We feel incredibly blessed to live in a country where the majority of all our doctors, midwives and hospital care is for free through Medicare and that the government gives maternity leave payments even if a person is self-employed. This is a blessing and it's allowing us to be able to plan to have some time getting used to baby boy Johnson before getting back into touring. Praise God! But not having a big music ministry tour at the beginning of the year has been a little difficult to trust in God financially with all the extra costs that are coming out of nowhere it seems. Here's the thing, we don't have a tangible reason to not trust in Him, but sometimes the heart and the emotions run off on little tangents leaving our minds trailing behind with the faith flag. We have seen in the past that God is always present. He doesn't hide from us. He has put us in this new journey, one that is sometimes uncertain, but we know that He isn't going to abandon us in it. He's here and He's already got it all figured out. I've decided that rather than stress, worry and get all tense, I can thank Him for His providence that hasn't arrived yet, but that will. I can ask for His will to be done in our lives. And I can trust in Him, the God who never hides from us. He is always here and He's the same yesterday, today and forever.